right now....

sitting here watching south park and apologizing to my friend...im finally starting to chang...for the past year i have been a dick to everyone..even my best friend caleb holdridge ..hes my best friend and i love him!.he is always there for me..and yet i was even a jerk to him!.i lost all my friends except him cause they got tired of being treated wrong by me!.he only stuck by cause hes my best friend and its what they do! my life has sucked for tyhe past year cause i have had no friends(well i had friends) but not ones i wanted i lost my true friends..but its time to say sorry and work on getting them back!..and i cant even get a girl cause they all think im a dick!   so im going to change..(so i can get the girl i want) =)  night world

haha

sitting here talking to Carly Henkel..interesting..haha...so this week my best friend got dumped by his girlfriend..i never liked her to much..its interesting cus it opened him up to alot more things..while he was with her he only cared about her..it bothered me!   and i came to him with an idea trying to help him grow in God and he did not want to  but now that he is not with her he is open to it  and im glad

another day

so i went to my youth group tonight...it was interesting...we talked about the camp our church just went to the week before...it was about your identity in Christ    the talks were interesting...but very watered down as if they didnt want to go to deep(which is funny since it was the point of the camp) but i wont argue with them haha...i
had a discussion a while ago about praying and spending time with God and how it was done and what it meant..this person told me that it was only through praying and talking to Him that you could talk to our Lord. but i disagreed with them..i speak to my God everyday through music and He speaks back..this person insisted that i was wrong(whats your opinion)...God is not human he does not work how we do..he doesn't just communicate through words ...He speaks through our hearts and things like music and photography and writing..were we rlly feel it..we can talk to Him through those things and He can talk back...
well thats all for now i guess folks  thanks to who ever is reading this
God bless

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im sitting here thinking like i always am..tired, bored, lonely..same as always thinking about the world we live in and the God we serve...how do we follow God in this corrupt world we now live in? i go by watching everyday watching my friends  the people i love say they are living for God when they are living for themselves. how do we live for our Lord when what we listen to is corrupt what we see is corrupt..everywhere we go we find ourselves being brought down   even in our churches most of us do not feel like we are in a Godly environment...we expect everyone to change these things for us..when in reality we need to change it..we sit around waiting for someone else to take the first step.. when WE need to take that step..the world cant change with hopes and dreams   the world can only change through actions with God...God made us and gave us a purpose to serve Him..and no one does anymore    everyone preaches about what we should be doing but does not actually do it...stop preaching and telling everyone else to do it  and make a difference..GET OUT THERE and make a difference and people will follow in your foot steps...we are the biggest influence of this world    so lets use that power and change it..lets get out there and serve our God  our father  lets serve him and show Him our love!...