right now....

sitting here watching south park and apologizing to my friend...im finally starting to chang...for the past year i have been a dick to everyone..even my best friend caleb holdridge ..hes my best friend and i love him!.he is always there for me..and yet i was even a jerk to him!.i lost all my friends except him cause they got tired of being treated wrong by me!.he only stuck by cause hes my best friend and its what they do! my life has sucked for tyhe past year cause i have had no friends(well i had friends) but not ones i wanted i lost my true friends..but its time to say sorry and work on getting them back!..and i cant even get a girl cause they all think im a dick!   so im going to change..(so i can get the girl i want) =)  night world